SHOCKING BUT SURPRISING

Over the last year and a half I went from being a professional triathlete to fighting cancer and becoming disabled.  My life has completely changed.  Just when I thought I was adapting pretty well I got hit with more life altering news.  The doctors figured out why I have been so nauseous since my last surgery . . . I'm pregnant . . . with TWINS!

You read it correctly I am pregnant with twins and due sometime in late January, early February.  When I first got the news I was pretty shocked.  Even more shocked when they told me there were two.  Both of them went through the surgery with me so they are already proving to be pretty tough.

I am trying to adjust to the idea of this but there is a huge overwhelming feeling lingering over me.  By the time I am ready to deliver it will be less than two years that I had three major surgeries, cancer and almost died from a kidney infection.  But I take great comfort in knowing this latest news is great news.  We were so scared that my kidney was being rejected in the new location and that I might need another surgery.  Thank goodness that is not the case!

I am still having a lot of issues with nausea and headaches even though I am already in the second trimester (16 weeks along.)  The anti-nausea meds help but some days I can't move from the couch.  I am hoping this will not last the entire pregnancy.  I have already been through so much.  I am already dreading the fact that they have to perform a C-section.  I will have to be cut open once again and this time I will be awake and strapped down.  This is freaking me out!

I also spend some days wondering, "How am I going to do this?"  How am I going to walk in a few more months?  I already have poor balance and I don't want to end up in a wheelchair.  Thank goodness my physical therapist is making sure I am strong enough in my core and quad so that I don't need the wheelchair.  I may need the walker but at least I will still be walking on my own.  Then there is the question where so we put them?  We need Extreme Home Makeover now more than ever.  We only have two bedrooms and one bath.  This is going to be interesting.  And last but not least our financial situation.  I am still paying off medical bills, trying to save enough to make our bathroom more disabled friendly and now we have more medical bills and two little ones coming.  It is very stressful for me.  I have to constantly remind myself that I am not in control and God will provide.  It usually calms me down!  Besides at least we are getting a 2 for 1 on the maternity deal!

So that is the latest and greatest news.  It is definitely shocking since we didn't expect this.  We didn't even think we would be able to conceive on our own which is why we spent a bundle on harvesting eggs.  I guess we didn't need them but at least it is better to be safe than sorry.  What a surprise!  Who said God didn't have a sense of humor? 

And my story seems to continue . . . .

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Jamie